As always, this question is open to people who know me or people who have happened on this blog while looking for actual helpful advice on that darned skin problem. I'm no respecter of nice helpful friends, be they new or old.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
It's Sunday which means I'm feeling contemplative
Here is a send out going to everyone in my little world asking for your own stories. As I sit on my couch in yet another student apartment, it's hard not to notice how different my life has turned out from my high school imaginings, college dreams, or even mid-twenties ideals. I'm not despondent, I know everything happens for a reason, but, when I was in high school, I figured I'd be married by 23. In college, I thought I'd have children sometime during that decade. And in my mid-twenties I assumed I'd be in a house by age 30. So with all of my ideas of what a lovely life looks like thrown out the window (don't worry, I'm still convinced I have a lovely life), I'm wondering if others too have been thrown a big curve ball by life. Who else would never have thought they'd be where they are or doing what they're doing? Someone, please tell me your life is not what you envisioned either, and why it's still so much better than your early imaginings!!
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Ha! You read my mind as we moved this past week into ANOTHER rental. I mean, who would have thought a LAWYER who has been practicing for four years still can't afford to buy a house in Orange County CA?
My life is definitely not what I planned. I thought for sure I would be settled by 30 and have at least four children by that time as well. I have just come to accept that life doesn't turn out like we planned. Which is probably better anyway. Now that I have one child and another on the way, have spent all of my savings to get pregnant, and just muddled through grad school, I am just happy to be where I am at now. I guess I have just learned to enjoy the journey instead of constantly trying to determine destinations and stick to a travel plan that wouldn't have allowed me to have the experiences I have had now.
Love you Sara!
Oh my goodness... well, I certainly am NOT where I envisioned myself to be when I was in highschool. As a card-carrying atheist feminist, the last thing on my list of 'to-do's was get married early, give my life to christ, be working for a missions organization and then desire nothing more than to be a stay at home wife and mother.
And yet here I am, by the grace of God. Now my case is different, because I desired the *wrong* things as a young woman, or at least, not enough of the right things, but you can give Jesus all the glory that I actually ended up having a goal and a value or two of worth. :)
The good thing is God is big enough to handle our "hey, whats going on?" questions and doubts. I know this becuase after wanting a child for SO many years and finally giving it over to the Lord and saying, "Ok, I can be ok without being a mother", I got pregnant. And then, before I could process what that was about, I had a miscarriage. And let me tell you, I had a few choice words of confusion for my beloved Heavenly Father. But He took it, and gave grace, and I came out on the other end with an even stronger faith in His soveriegnty and goodness.
THanks for being honest and sharing your heart wth us... its nice to have this connection with you so many years later. :)
Blessings,
Nicole
Not to worry: I moved into my first house after 9 years of marriage. Now you can't get me to leave. The children have NOT come as I planned, and I married someone I thought I never would.
One of the absolutes about mortality is that your reality is never like your dreams.
Sometimes, it's even better.
And always, you're better for it. Good luck with everything, and know you are in good company. Love!
What do you mean "not how I envisioned"? I'm sure I went on and on in highschool all about how I would get married (at the ripe old age of 24) to the man of my dreams who would be at least 10 years my senior, and divorced of course, and how exciting I thought it would be to become a step-mother one day!! Didn't I?!
And I'm sure it was part of my 10-year Plan to take at least that long to earn a Bachelor's Degree and Secondary Teaching Certificate in Biology so that I could eventually teach Preschool and be a working Mom!
Really, I think Natalie shared some wise words about how the reality of mortality can be even better than our dreams. My "dreams" actually seem quite boring in comparison to how things have really turned out. Good thing, says I.
LOL - oddly enough, I don't really remember having a set ideal in my mind of what my life would be like... Really all I wanted was to get married in the temple, have kids and be a stay at home mom - in that order... lol - I guess if you are not creative enough to think up the details, then it's hard to have them messed up on you... of course I am 30 - happily married to my best-iest friend, with 4 small, adorable crazy kids and living in our own home... but my life isn't over yet so we'll see what curve balls it throws. Dan likes spontaneity, so I'd better get used to the idea :)
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