The next evening I looked at a video my tablet made for me of the pictures I took from the past year. As I watched a whole flood of sad emotions came in as I realized just what we had really gone through. In 2015 we experienced:
- Continued infertility.
- Stress over uncertainty at work.
- Applying for new jobs.
- Selling a house that did not go remotely as well as I had hoped.
- Moving from one coast to another.
- Saying goodbye to an area, ward, friends, house and grocery store with which we had fallen madly in love.
- Being homeless (ok unsettled) for 6 weeks (4 of which I was a single parent).
- Buying a new house with multiple things breaking down shortly after we moved into it.
- Transitioning to a new ward, friends, house and grocery store and having it be way harder than anticipated (is it getting older that makes it so much harder??)
- Miscarriage.
- Doing all of this while raising two children deep in the throes of terrible 2 and 3-ness.
I'm not saying that my year was harder than anyone else's year, but for me that is a lot of stress to go through in so short a period of time. I look at that list and think how did I make it through that with my sanity, marriage and testimony in tact. The answer? A very loving Heavenly Father who graced me with many tender mercies along the way (mainly through amazing and heaven-sent loved ones). The healing power of the Atonement that somehow makes hardships easier to bear. A wonderful husband who stepped up and became even more stupendous and loving and tender and thoughtful.
And so while I never want to relive this past year ever again, I am grateful to have been able to come out the other side a bit more polished, a bit more sure of Heavenly Father's love for me and a lot more in love with my husband.
1 comment:
Just needed to say, "I love you my BEAUTIFUL daughter and appreciate you and your blog so very much. As Mother would say, "Just sayin."
Love,
Dad
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