But a few things have happened that have brought peace back to my life.
- I feel sure the Lord is pleased with my offering of the last year and a half. I have gone back to this on numerous occasions when I have felt myself being dragged down by my new frenemies.
- Once the offer was made to my ward family for free baby gear I have enjoyed seeing my babies' things going to appreciative new homes.
- My husband has been nothing but supportive. And even though he did try "fixing" my grief one night, he made up for it when I told him that all I wanted was a hug and a kiss and for him to tell me that everything would be okay. This man is a keeper.
- This past week, I invited one of Boy Howdy's friends (who's mother is a dear friend of mine) over for a playdate. It could not possibly have gone any better. Totally a tender mercy from a very loving Heavenly Father. Not only did I get to momentarily visit with a wonderful woman whom I hadn't been able to connect with for some time but our children played beautifully. Little friend C was the perfect complement to Boy and Girl Howdy and they all played happily together for two hours leaving this mama to cook in blessed and merciful solitude. It seems so small but I truly felt the love of the Lord in those few hours of peace.
- I may not have three babies like I wanted but I do have two. And though my patience is tested and fails on a regular basis, I am oh so lucky to have them. And I know that the size of my family is not a reflection of my husband and my efforts.
- Finally, today in my primary class we discussed Lehi's dream of the Tree of Life. We discussed how the mists of darkness and the great and spacious building do a great job of moving us away from the path to the Tree with its most desirable fruit. But when we hold firmly to the iron rod we keep on course. In the last two weeks, I may not have had my heart totally in my daily scripture reading or prayers but they were observed, keeping me linked to the iron rod and moving in the right direction, even if I moved a bit more slowly than normal.
So, with all that said, our family is complete. And now that the decision is clear and we are at peace, we are looking forward to our fun future as a family of four. All hail bright and exciting things to come for the Marlers.
7 comments:
Love you. Hugs, my friend.
Wonderfully well said, my Amazing Daughter. I am so proud of you (in a non-Pres. Benson way.) I love you so much.
Oh I love you Sara! Hugs from across the country. Your family is so, so beautiful.
That was a wonderful post Sara, you're a great example and my brother is blessed to have you. Love you!
Megan
I needed to read this today! Thanks for your honesty! Missing you in Pa. Erica
Love you so much! You are a true friend and beautiful example to me.
Another beautiful post Sara. Your posts are always from the heart and I appreciate how real you are. You have two beautiful children and a wonderful husband. I gave the lesson on the Tree of Life. So much strength from that story. I love the gospel and the peace it brings to not only me, but all of my friends and family. You are amazing and I can't wait to spend time with you soon. Love you dear friend!
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